DiOSA

I am sure of myself as a person I am sure of myself as an artist I am sure of my talent  I am sure of my ability to create and share love

Fuck all this shit genuinely 

 Gotta be the eclipse man

 <3 so happy 

I was the earth.  The sitting rock on the coast of your crashing wave, the tree you smacked but never uprooted You were the crackle of a fire  burning everything  I brought to my secret spot We made love and hurricane was born Every stake I stuck in you was kicked right from under me.  This did not discourage my efforts though many times it tried. I remade my staff—tediously, with tender hand and heart— just for the same unfortunate occurrence.  It’s not even about love anymore. Unless you can match any level of my stability you must stay away from me.  Stay far far from away from me.  Allow me the chance to memorialize you  I refuse to believe, no I declare I am not too much. I am not the problem.  I am the same woman, not without my faults but perpetually honest except  foolish in my earnestness…to run fast then slower then inch myself into the same stubborn wall as if you weren’t already there.  Thank God I have a therapist

In this dream I Jordan and I met up with each other at a park table. He had a deep blue handbag with brown straps and I had a silver bag with brown straps completely identical besides color. We were ready to talk to each other and unpack things. Someone else was with us, a woman actually, but her presence felt more implied than real. Something spiritual Symbols: purses ~ to me this is the literal representation of baggage the color deep blue ~ emotional heaviness, intense introspection and sobering realizations the color silver ~ intuition, inner wisdom, moon wisdom and feminine energy and emotional reflection the color brown ~ grounding  Interpretation: Jordan and I have emotional baggage that we are bringing to each other. We were there it seems to sort it out and put it on the table. Our baggage is similar and directly related to our relationship. He is still holding a lot of heaviness around it whereas mine is lighter and more realized. There is a spiritual feminine figure who ...

Bobby and friends came through to my place which was a freaking mess to make some music. I ran into them at a cafe or something, I think I had been in the city for just a little bit coming from Mexico which is accurate to real life. That was a huge reason as to why my place was a mess, I had unpacked sloppily (once again like real life) and clothes and supplies were everywhere. I invited them back to my place regardless, asked for a moment to shuffle some of the mess around and then let them in. There was music happening upstairs but it wasn't hitting so we made some from my place my apartment became a studio and people came immediately ready to dance and be present. It’s also worth noting my apartment was unlocked when I returned from Mexico in the dream. 

I was in one place then took a quick helicopter trip to Hawaii from there. When I got to Hawaii I was on the white sand beach and a black boar spotted me. He couldn’t get his eyes off me and he wanted to interact. People were saying it was something I should fear or run away from because they’re dangerous. There was nowhere for me to run. When beachgoers tried to hold him back it was useless. I had to just prepare for what was coming which was a black boar holding my hand in his mouth. He surprisingly wasn’t hurting me. I could feel his teeth and saliva.  He held my hand in his mouth gently but the sight was worth calling animal control because they showed up and snuck behind the boar to shock him with electricity so it let go. I gave the boar a soft warning beforehand. The shock was violent but it didn’t work for long. I got away but then he found me again somewhere else and clamped my hand in his mouth and then a white boar with black spots clamped the other one in its mouth...