Parts 1-5 at Cafe Calaca (5.18.2024)

I. Anima to inert

Anima, the irrational part of the soul and the 
    feminine part of a man

Inert, the lack of vigor

On the peripheral

He kissed her and started to cry

In her, he saw--a wife, a mother, a burden and a whore

    A complex beauty made his manhood bygone

He kissed her     and began to cry. Genesis 29:10

If we cannot manifest past our subconcsious fear

The ego and the mind will step in to gain control

Detach from the necessary pain of the process

On a higher level--

The one who hesitates is lost. 

II. Daddy dream

He was drunk at home. The veil was thin. His friends came over and there were Polaroids of girls with big fake breasts.

Spring break.

Neon green bikini, bright white face mask

Outside of my family 

    and whatever sorts of conditioning deemed

    moralistic and appropriate, 

My mind exists as a stream of gargled particulars

Similar to the internet 

    an endless mirage of life, farce and coded illusions

In a box with all her memories

the magician cuts his assistant in two 

Half a lady lies.

III. On top of my body

      You lay camoflage

A chameleon taking my shape and skin color

If not for the density of your dandelion chest

            I never would have noticed your breath.

*deep inhale, deep exhales 3x*

My lover provides good,

measurable care 

But he is not a romantic like me.

IV. Going to work

I wanted to look

I had to look

Suppressing the personal parts. I swallowed myself and regurgitated an alternate. Take my place until 3 o'clock.

I watched the eclipse

I did not see God.

V. My freedom does not sit at the base of your ballsack

When faster foods no longer satiate

Let go of the resistance so we can make our dreams possible. 

To push intuition forward

Take inventory, own, integrate

If we are made majority of water

    deep, individual oceans

I was born to live outside of you

To be fulfilled is to flow freely into the current of more

The one who hesitates is lost. 

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Shoutouts: 

Thank to Nikki for bringing us together (the organizer of this reading)

Thank you to the band (that played behind this spoken piece)

Thank you to everyone who writes and reads aloud

Thank you

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