12.14 Jada's Birthday Soiree LIVE @ KGB
At the gala
we celebrated under seen youth. We gave the youth a chance by offering them programs to start tech jobs we desperately needed more engineers of love of compassion perhaps more of those opera singers belting the blues to the furthest seat in the balcony. When I entered the conference room men in suits wore sneakers on the bottom and I thought of Virgil as I myself wore a plaid three piece skirt suit and cheetah sneakers so I thought of myself in a way that made me neither vain nor self conscious. On the lighter side of the spectrum gray skies offer themselves as an outlet for my misplaced observations, a worry I must've inherited from the women around me or those I never met or the man in my life.
I can’t stop saying it but it doesn’t make it less true.
There’s only a few ways to express love words in English. So instead I play a song say thank you, I see you, I’m so happy you’re here, where was I before you, I remember when I used to pray for these days I spend with you make my life span longer when you hold me I am yours and I’ve never felt like your prize but I’d be flattered to sit on your shelf get polished by your tender cloth in all the ways you say I love you. I love you. It’s not enough just to say I love you.
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One day it’s perfect and wonderful
the next I’m being presented with something that completely disturbs me.
II. Last night I had a dream
I was happy making out with a girl and my boyfriend was happy making out with me and we must have been making out with each other because it felt taboo in the way that rejects colonialism and challenges notions of property which in and of itself is an abomination to the hidden truth of abundance on earth but also like the opening of a precious dewy flower in Opening up a relationship when your boyfriend expresses his desire for physical stimulation and suddenly you start dreaming of enjoying it with him,,, is that the normalization of a defeated boundary or an awakening stripped clean?
Last night I had a dream
I am a teacher in my waking world, I cannot be as batshit as I want to be online
In my hands I hold two ropes It’s a tug of war against me
What I want vs what I accept
In the process of pulling the tension of the two ropes snap and suddenly my palms are bleeding
Last night I
In an underground economy
Had a dream
My mother ditched me to pursue her dreams in music. She left me with my grandparents and told me to go to Japan. I was not very happy and I was hurt by her conviction.
Last night
I was in Chicago. Mommy was getting ready to leave and start her own life away from home. Rigby was laying on my legs in the kitchen so lovingly. I told her she had my support.
In my dream
Daddy was trying to get me to my grandparents house but had poor intuitional directions. I stayed at my grandparents' it was really lovely they made me feel very comfortable though I was looking for the proper opportunity to watch porn and masturbate.
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My Flava of Love Name would be Exquisite
If you like male attention just be honest and say it
I promise we won’t jump you
Straight men don’t approach me because hot girls do
Baby faced lesbians get it done
wearing my non-binary parental clock around my neck
Its not a competition but I’m def winning
